Elysian

Dust gloom as I shed my tears, push down all of my fears, withering hieghts, slithering minds, and then it's faded into, a light that blinds, I dont know what to do, what should I do? smeared smiles, teared eyes, years pass, trying to walk on bits and pieces of, broken glass, shattered like my heart, shatter me apart.

 When sky set down at nightfall begin, The moments of my past made a slight grin, The things that killed me didn't kill me anymore The people that meant the world to me didn't mean the world to me anymore, But I just feel grateful, To collect memories along the way, To try and live my life to the fullest, But maybe as wise men say, Forever is for memories not for people, Maybe regrets were hard but managed to close fresh wounds, Or maybe it was an illusion of a spark that could've lasted longer, But at the end, I lived, I powered through it, I survived.

Rain pouring down  like the sharpest thorns, perfect storms, se lf shattered into pieces, thunder after thunder, breath after breath, heart's ponding hard, I just feels like death, when dreams turn into burden, and love turns blind, I'll be found in the midst of everything, lies all twined, thrown into  the deepest of seas, all to drown, expected to be, the perfect divine, but I cant fulfill that prophecy, I'm not destined, I'm not the sacred divine, I'm not the shine in the line, I'm sorry to disappoint, I'm not the shrine, although I am destined, for us, all to decline.

I h ope I get love soon, I heard it's beautiful, like butterflies in sky, and stars when aligned, but all I felt were the days pass by, I wait for you for so long, why aren't you found? drifts of sky, thrusts of wind, whispers pass, smiles exchange, distant laugh, trystant times, misted sounds, wake up now.

Oh, your just like the the waves, one after another, hit by hit, tear me apart, brick by brick, I fall  down, struggle to be okay, struggle  to be stable , why do you do this to me? I cry, I try, to pretend that its fine, and it know its wrong, I know its bad, I know I don't love  you, but why do I feel  bad that your gone, our toxicness, spread in my veins, through my heads and through my brains, the next second, we part our ways, I start to miss you, Oh, your just lik e the waves, hurting and pu l ling and me not  let going.